My Lord and God, I remember I used to write to you all of the time.  It was one of my favorite times to encounter you.  I have since gotten away from it.  But I want to come to you again.  I want to renew the fire that was once their.  A passion for you.  I have found that intimacy with you starts not with a procedure or a ritual but with a heart.  I could do the same thing a thousand times and each time I would have a different experience with you.  You love our hearts.  And you are so fascinated with us.  Father, over the past season I have longed for intimacy with you.  But have not shown it.  Times ment for you and I, I spent them on things of this world.  Business I knew would not give me a chance to draw nearer.  And forf a time you pulled away.  I grew away from scripture, I grew bored of prayer, I didn't feel your spirit, nor did I hear you speak.  For a time it apeared that I would fall into a sleep like death.  And yet you are a constant God, you pursue, and you don't let go those you call your children.  Over the past few weeks I have been experiencing a revival within my life.  A reawakening to the goodness that is God.  Jesus, thank you for your presence.  Thank you for your help.  For drawing me nearer.  I ask for your grace in my quiet times.  That I would seek first the kingdom of heaven and trust that all else that I need would be given to me.  Jesus, I want a relationship with you.  I want to go deaper.  I don't want to be defined by the group or cercumstances that I am in.  And I don't want it to depend on the group that I am with.  I want to be jealous for you like you are Jealous for me and my brothers.  God, would you radically change me.  Change me so that I am hungry for you in the morning.  That my greatest joy in life would be to spend more time with you.  I ask Lord, I ask for your presence.  I ask for more of you in my life.  PLease over the next few days draw me nearer.  In the morning let me be hungry for you.  Lead me in conversation, and show me how to talk with you.  I want to follow you like a wife her husband.  In love and tenderness teach me to minister to your people, to your body.  Let me serve you from a heart of love.  Jesus, I see the imposibilities.  I see how far you have to draw me in order for me to serve you like I should...and yet...I see that there is more hope than I could ever have known.  Faith, that the Lord is more faithful to the least of these than I am to my King of Kings.  Jesus, in a days movement in several hours time you take me from the pit i felt like I was trapped in to the top of a mountain.  In Jesus, as I lower myself before my king He raises me up for a kiss.  The flame inside of me burns dimly.  I feel so little strength from my spirit.  Thank you Lord for taking me out of the Doctors office.  I don't think I would have survived had I stayed.  It would have been status quo, and busy.  I needed to give in to my God.  I needed to spend time with him.  Thank you Jesus.
Amen